I MISS YOU  / Angie (Mom)

I picture you walking up the path
and walking through the door,
I listen out for your gentle laugh
but I cant hear it anymore.

I hold my hands out everyday
Hoping for your gentle touch,
But I dont feel your warm hands touch me
Its a feeling I miss so much.

I wait for you to wipe my tears
But you want yours wiping too,
And everyday still hurts so much
Because my life is missing you.

I keep your memory in my soul
It burns so bright each day,
And all the things I have in my mind
Theres three words I want to say,

I Miss You!

 

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My Son  / Angie (Mom)

They say there is a reason, they say time will heal. But neither time nor resaon, will change the way I feel. For no one knows the heartache, that lies beneath my smile. No one knows how many times I have broken down and cried. I want to tell you something, so there won't be no doubt. You're so wonderful to think about, but so hard to live without.

I love you and miss you sooo much, my Angel. "Forever in my Heart"

 

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Thinking of your Angel Above ...  / Angela -. Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor

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Sending Wishes for a Gentle Father's Day  / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White (Connected by Angels )

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One Year-One Month  / Angie (Mom)

   If tears could build a stairway,and memories were a lane.

I would walk right up to heaven , and bring you back again. 

     No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye.

     You were gone before I knew it, and only God knows why.

     My heart still aches in sadness, and secret tears still flow.

          What it meant to lose you, no one will ever know.

     But now I know you want me to mourn for you no more.

  To remember all the happy times life still has much in store.

        Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today.A cherished place within my heart, is where you'll always stay.

Mijto, Today is one year and one month that you have been gone from me. As time has gone by I have learned that I will never accept your death, but that I will surrender myself to what happened because I can not change it!  I can hardly wait to be with you again. But, I will be patient, knowing that I shall one day with tears of great joy in my eyes, I will hold you in my arms again. I love you so much! I miss you so much! "Forever in my heart"

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Missing You  / Mom

I am missing you so much this weekend. I have just been sitting around here by myself remembering the wonderful barbecues we used to have. Your Nina and cousins and my friends comming over. Or sometimes it was just me and you sitting out in the patio having some beers and listening to old school music. Things are not the same here without you, Baby. Sometimes I think friends and family are afraid to come over to the house because they know that you are not going to be here. To greet them with that big smile of yours and to not hear your corny jokes that kept everbody laughing till there stomache hurt. I feel so alone without you.  Oh God, if I can just hear your voice one more time!!! Always missing you...Forever loving you.

 

 

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My heart...  / Stephanie Martinez (Friend)
Still holds you close Gene.  How I listen to all the songs you used to play for me.. over...and over again!  You cross my mind all the time.. and I think it's you letting me know your close!  Your text msgs stayed in my phone.. and I can't seem to erase them from my heart or my phone!  Your funny jokes.. you great laugh.. and ur silly little Raider dance..!!  damn Gene.. how I just miss you... your friendship.. our talks...Just everything!  I pray for your family.. your mom, sisters and your kids..!!  They hurt Gene.. heal them with peace!  I love you Gene.. from now until Eternity!  Close

Happy Angel Day  / Mom

Happy Angel Day my love. I hope you had a wonderful day with all the Angels and Jesus and Nana. I was dreading this day to come but when I woke up this morning I felt this calmness and peace in my heart. Like you were telling me that you are very happy and at peace where you are. Though time came to take you, you're still living in my heart. I'll hold you here forever in my mind, till we meet someday on the other side of time.I miss you so much. Especially all the good times we had. You were my best friend. Goodnight Mijto. Rest in peace. I love you!

"Forever In My Heart"

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MY WEAKNESS  / YANETTE PATINO (DAUGTHER)
I wake up everyday knowing that it is another day to be strong and care for my kids. but deep down inside me is a river of tears dieing to overflow the gate that is traping the water. i swear at times i dont know what to do any more i dont get a call from you saying how much you miss me and love me and how proud you are with me.  it gets to dam hard that you are not around to see the good i have done. there are so many days were i think you are not proud of me at all and it just kills me inside that i cant hear it from you! or there isnt a sign sent from you to show me that you are proud of me. i hurt so dam much to the point where i just want to run and never look back i cant deal with this pain and i dont now how to deal with it! but everyday i have to wake up stronger then the next to now that my kids see me as a strong preson as every one else does. pls daddy show me a sign or something i really miss you!! Close

Missing you so much  / Michele Grajeda (Lil Sis )

Days turned into weeks and then weeks turned into months now its finally a year. Brother oh how I miss you so much and need you here with me. I feel like I cant breathe anymore and dont know what to do. I miss talking and hearing your voice. When things were not right you where here to make them better and now I have nobody. Gene, I cant even explain the pain that I have each and every day that I carry with me and dont know how to get rid of it. Please Gene talk to me and let me know that you are okay and happy. I love you so much and need you with me.  I really miss all the times that we went out and danced, bullshited and just had a good time.  It is not and will never be the same. Brother I Love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!

Michele

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My Child, My Friend  / Angie (Mom)

MY CHILD, MY FRIEND,

I’ll never forget the day that God sent you into my life,
The awesome way your smile seemed to make everything all right.

I’ll never forget the love you shared, unselfish and true,
I’ll never forget the special gift God bestowed on me in you.

As you stood before the Father, as your precious time had come,
With open arms he welcomed you, my child He said, "Well Done!"

But what about my Mom, who stood by me all the way?
I need to know, I’ve got to know Lord will she be O.K.?

You mean the one I chose for you, whose love for you has no end?
Oh yes, my loving precious child, her broken heart I’ll mend.

For she knows me and she loves me, though today her heart is torn,
Your mother's faith will uphold her; she knows I'll comfort them that mourn.

Though at times our hearts are heavy, the truth we plainly see,
My loving, dedicated, precious Child…

This day God has SET YOU FREE!

Remembering you, Loving you, Missing you always.

"Forever in my heart"

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I Miss You  / Angie (Mom)

I miss you more than you’ll ever know,
The world is not the same without you here.
Sadness washes over me without a moments notice,
Your presence can be so clear .

I wish I could be that Mom again,
The one who answered every call.
And laughed at all your stories,
Who lent the understanding ear .

I loved being there for you,
I looked forward to all that lay ahead.
I wanted the best for you,
I lost such a good friend.

I still long to see that bright smile,
That lit up those beautiful eyes.
I want to feel the strong hug,
I want to hear your contagious laugh.

The wait seems so long indeed,
Until I can see you again.
I just want to be that Mom again,
The one who loved you more than you’ll ever know.

Happy Easter My Love, I miss you so much!

"Forever in my Heart"

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A prayer for you  / Cristina**mom Of Angel Eddy Vargas ((angel friend) )
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My Condolences to your family  / Patricia Wade
Angie, I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that you lost your son. He reminds me of Frances son on Moms. Very handsome. I hope who ever did this to him is put away. We are waiting to see if one of the two guys who murdered John in Phoenix will talk and give the third guy up. Let me hear from you if you get a chance. Tomorrow will be 6 weeks John has been dead. It's so hard to believe. The pain is beyond anything ever. Close

You're Free  / Angie (Mom)

You're free now my love from earths hurt and pain.
Soaring above it all, never to be troubled again.
Your beautiful smile and carefree facade are seen by angles and the ever-present God.
A spirit you've become, a midsummer’s sunset, a bountiful harvest of memories, ones that I will never forget.
Your life was too short, taken from those you loved, to join the ranks of heaven, to watch over us from above.
Gene, you showed us how to laugh, you made our lives complete.
But now that laughter's faded, until once again we meet.
Your memory will live on, a piece in all our minds.
But yet we find it so very hard to put the pain and anger behind.
We love you and we miss you.
This has been life's hardest test.
Yet, you would want us to move on.
Goodnight sweet Gene, now you're at rest.

I love you and miss you so much. "Forever In My Heart"

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EveryDay / Demetrio Moreno (SON)

EveryDay,

Everyday i wake up knowing your not here. EveryDay i have to shed a tear. EverDay i live in fear. EverDay I wake up wanting you to be here. EveryDay i knowing that your up there. EveryDay i pry. EveryDay flashbacks fly. EveryDay i say "why". EveryDay I look at your picture. Everday i want to cry to my sister. EveryDay i live in pain. Everyday it feels like im in a terriable rain. Everyday its a storm. Everyday i feel cold then warm. Everyday i want you back. Everday i picture you in your car. Everyday it hurts knowing your sooo far.

Dad i miss you from the bottom of my heart. I wanted you back from the very start. I hate knowing your gone. I hate making "i miss you" songs. Because i didnt think you were gonna go away. But when i got the news i wanted you to stay. Damn i dont know what to do. Be a fool or just be cool? I wanted to tell you so much. Dad i love you and I MISS YOU

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All Heaven Was Mourning  / Angie Saucedo (Mom)

All heaven was in mourning, the day my son died; when he closed his eyes, they said, ten thousand angels cried.

The angels shed their many tears, because he was God's Son; but there is a special sadness when God takes the very young.

At times like that, I question God, why let a child die? I cannot understand it and I need to ask him why?

I, too, have heard the angels cry. I've heard them cry first-hand; for I  too, gave up a child and I've tried hard to understand.

Yes, I've received God's comfort, though I'm grateful, I want more. I want reasons; I want meaning, I'm a parent who's heart-sore.

God can give and God can take, I am well aware of this. But, why my baby...why my child? Why did God put him on his list?

Did I love my child too much? Was he too good for this earth? Had his purpose here been filled? Was that why he was taken first?

I awake each day with questions, I fall asleep at night, the same. So many times I ask God "Why?". I'm both saddened and ashamed.

But, then in reflective moments, when my prayers are most intense. One word keeps going through my mind, Patience...Patience...Patience.

Maybe now is not the time.

"Forever in my heart"

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A Pair of Shoes  / Angie Saucedo (Mom)
"A Pair of Shoes"

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some woman are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child. 

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My Sweet Angel  / Angie Saucedo (Mom)
My Sweet Angel,
I feel I have a gaping hole in my body and mind. At times it seels like hell on earth. How do I begin the long journey of adapting to a new life without you? How do I adjust to the unfamiliar and begin to find joy once again? I miss you so much, every minute of everyday. Love you Mijo. 
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What up  / Demetrio Moreno (SON)
What up dad?
 Me nothing just trying not to be sad. i been thinking about you lately. So hows everything up there? I really miss you. Damn now i dont know what to do. I sit at night and everytime i do i tear drops down my eye. I take walks so i could have time to my self. I get up every moring and see you on my shelf. When im out having fun, i miss all the times that me and you have done. From clowing on my tia's or my sis. Damn theres alot of things i miss. People say i have everything about you. From faceal expressions to just everything you did. But i dont have a kid. I think to myself and i ask myself "why didnt i spend more time with my dad?" And thinking about you i get sad. My fists starts to get tight. And in a couple of seconds im down to fight. But late at night when i sleep. I dream deep. And its mostly about you. And to the things that you used to do. How we would go out and eat your favorite food. I go visit you when i have time. Your always on my mind. I wait for you to call my mom and ask her if you could pick me up. Then my mind gets stuck. I start to get teary. I shed so many tears in the past months you have been gone. I always listen to those R.I.P. songs. 'Cause they make me think of you and i keep dreaming but for now dad just keep sleeping. Rest in peace i got everything undercontrol. No more worries. No more having to hear my bad stories. MUch love your son
Love, 
         Demetrio Moreno
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